A Winter’s Tale


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A man was moving out of his English cottage, and I was walking by, and he invited me in, to see it before he left for good, on a Toluca Lake street (where I’ve set my next short story), into a home, emptied of content, yet still full of emotion; an ideal cottage in the low millions, outfitted with dark wood floors, marble bathrooms, and discreetly elegant paneling; electric sconces, French doors, and striped awnings hung on black spears. And a subtly vaulted living room where cool winter light streamed through little steel windows splashing in blue light a brown, stained, scuffed floor.

He had lived here for seven years, placed in Los Angeles by a now bankrupt mortgage company who had conceivably compensated him well enough, but left him to hang out to dry when they collapsed. He became that very tragic figure: the enviable executive who lives in a beautifully decorated house where Roman shades, silent burger alarms, wi-fi, and built-in cabinetry mask financial illness.

He showed me photos from a glossy real estate brochure, of symmetrical rooms where couches and chairs mingled politely and toilet tanks stood erect in upright, polished splendor. He spoke wistfully of his 84 months here, 2,555 days of certain sunshine and uncertain liquidity.

I wondered if he had contemplated suicide, as I had many times, up awake at 3am, convinced I would never find work, angry at myself and my life choices, in fear of not paying my mortgage or getting the money for property taxes, medical bills and AT&T. Did the lush aesthetics of this house, with its fountains and sunlit corners, soothe the frightened beast inside of us all, the frail human alone as his nation commits economic genocide? Did hunger ever enter the confines of the redone kitchen? Did tears pour out of his eyes as he stood near the pivoting water spigot over the chef’s stove?

I did not ask.

A Jaguar, packed with plastic mattress covers and suitcases, sat on the driveway, and the backyard was full of rose bushes and two lounge chairs set on the green lawn. We walked through cerebral, reserved, tranquilizing rooms painted in healing greens and mournful blues from those cursed years after 9/11.

Every corner was well crafted and exquisite, from the ornate iron registers to the crown molding, to the high hat recessed lights, to the 50-year slate/asphalt roof, copper gutters, matte celadon backsplash tile, stone patio, Tuscan fountain and hi-efficiency heating.

White haired and kind voiced, with an intonation I remembered from New York, the man spoke with optimism and hope about losing the house profitably. He would soon set up his life somewhere in Sherman Oaks, holding a wet finger into the wind on Beverly Glen, hoping that this sale might release another California dream to carry him into future love and security.

15126 Kittridge St.


July 4th weekend was hot.

All day long the sun beat down and broiled the city, blinding and exhausting it.  You were either at the beach or in your house, air-conditioned.  Napping was involuntary.

They were lighting off explosives all weekend here in Van Nuys, late into the night. I imagined a city all around me, of thousands of illegal aliens, doing illegal things, joyfully and recklessly.

Around 7 pm, the sun settled down, the temperatures cooled, and after a dinner of fried salmon and cold tomatoes with red onions, I put on my sandals, walked out into the dusk and found myself on Kittridge Street.

West of Kester, east of Sepulveda, there are a few neat blocks of solid, mid 20th-century houses, still well-kept and outwardly honorable. Lawns are trimmed, eaves are painted, and there are few broken down properties.

Too poor for renovation, too wealthy for destruction, these houses were not torn down and mansionized by investors, as one sees on many pockmarked neighborhoods in Sherman Oaks.

Instead, this tidy and sturdy pocket of bourgeois respectability, in the heart of Van Nuys, is sandwiched between Sepulveda’s whore show and Kester’s impoverished subculture.

At 15126 Kittridge, a pistachio green and vanilla trimed house, with vaulted ceilings, open carport, and welcoming courtyard, is for sale for only $315,000 or $190 a square foot.

Two friendly guys were working on a 1979 BMW, next door, when I approached the house. They told me to walk right into the courtyard and around the back.

First impressions: clean, solid, bright.

There was a private, enclosed, elegant front entrance under angled eaves.

Around the side yard, an old steel pole clothes-line was planted into the concrete, just outside the kitchen door. A green plastic chair, nearby, marked a place where a tired woman, no doubt, had rested, chores done, after she had pinned damp cotton clothes to dry in the eternal Southland sun.

There were leftover forms from the last century all around: a TV antenna, a backyard patio in zig-zag concrete pattern, and a tall drum shaded lamp in the side window.

And sliced into the stucco walls: high clerestory windows, everywhere, bringing light into the living room and into every bedroom; bedrooms where people, from Sputnik days to iPhone times, had slept, slept for 55 years, in suburban solitude, through war, riots, assassinations, movie premieres, and freeway pile-ups.

It was quiet here, peaceful, lovely. It was nothing fancy, just something inherently American and naively optimistic in design and intention.

Somewhere in America, long ago, people had built with confidence and care, incorporating the latest Space Age designs, but encasing them in tradition, in family, in expectation, that life could be orderly, well run and peaceful.

But the people of 15126 Kittridge had moved out of here, some time ago, so it was a preserved family house without a present day family, a mute museum of life, of time past and lost forever, and thus without love or conflict, laughter or pain.

Perhaps only the electric lamp on a timer and weekly visits from the gardener kept this home alive.

As I walked away from 15126 Kittridge, the sky dimmed, the moon came out.

And I heard the voice of Jo Stafford, sung to the words and music of Irving Berlin:

You keep coming back like a song

A song that keeps saying, remember

 The sweet used-to-be

That was once you and me

Keeps coming back like an old melody

 

The perfume of roses in May

Returns to my room in December

 From out of the past where forgotten things belong

You keep coming back like a song

Closed to the Public.


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Closed to the Public., originally uploaded by here in van nuys.

This is a well proportioned, older home on Hamlin St. in Van Nuys.

Serving as a rental, it has seen the last of the old tenants move out, and seems to be unoccupied. Or perhaps it is serving as someone’s home. I don’t know. The yard is neglected. The shades are pulled down.

A very ugly sign hangs from the house with a warning: “This property closed to the public. No entry without permission.”

Near the Beach: Venice, CA.


There is just something simple and direct about this old house that I find appealing. It probably is close to 100 years old. Just steps away from the beach, it has seen a lot of changes in this neighborhood through the years.

There was a time when Californians built homes that communicated with the pedestrian. A facade was not a garage door, nor was it modernist with all the activity oriented behind gates, gardens and doors. The old houses reached out to the street and beckoned the passerby to come visit.

And these houses were “green” in the sense that they used energy sparingly. No air-conditioning, open windows, sparingly lit with just enough electricity and no excess of exterior lighting.

This is not the most beautiful house on the block, but its proportions are better than almost anything built today in mass quantity. There is balance and self-assurance, modesty and directness.

These are Americans qualities as well.