In a Grieving Mood


The first anniversary of her death will be on September 1st. In the year since my mother died, I have experienced days of grief that just came over me, an intense sadness: unshakeable, persistent and gripping. And then, inexplicably, the darkness leaves and I’m set back into temporary equilibrium. I no longer cry easily and…

An Exploration.


An Exploration Sometime over the past few months I found myself looking at a blog, “Mad Thirsty”, an honest and striking creation, in photography and small cap text, of Jesse Somera, a Los Angeles based model and photographer, who documents some of his world online. Some titles of posts: photos of two jobs, party&bullshit and…

May 15, 1994.


Twenty years ago, I packed a large green duffle bag, boarded a plane and flew from New York to Los Angeles. On the flight, sitting beside me: Julie Garfield, daughter of actor John Garfield. She was an acting teacher and gave me her card. I rode a van from LAX that travelled circuitously through the…

Under the Tent Selling Salt


For the past few months, I’ve worked at an improbable profession, selling salt part-time at the farm markets, chiefly at Hollywood on Sunday and up at Yamishiro, on Thursday evening. The work starts when I drive to a six-story high concrete storage facility in West LA, punch in a code, and ride up in a…

Sage Advice


I can’t tell you whether my heart is on my left or right side. And I have a breathtakingly vast ignorance about a wide variety of subjects: compound interest, compound fractures, car engines, childhood development; the definition of commonwealth, where Manitoba is. But pushing the half-century mark, nearing 50, my visible intellectual naiveté is now…

An Atheist.


An atheist who gives his money to the poor is closer to God than a religious man who does not.An atheist doesn't justify his actions in God's name.An atheist doesn't need to run for political office shouting out how "devout" he is. An atheist won't blow himself up on a bus to kill unbelievers.An atheist…